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The Expendables OST: Brian Tyler - Lee and Lacy

Tue, 06 Dec 2011 16:05:00 +0300

The Expendables OST: Brian Tyler - Lee and Lacy

Sankharas and stream of consciousness

Wed, 12 Oct 2011 22:43:00 +0400

When ignorance and craving underlie our stream of consciousness, our volitional actions of body, speech, and mind become forces with the capacity to produce results, and of the results they produce the most significant is the renewal of the stream of consciousness following death. It is the sankharas, propped up by ignorance and fueled by craving, that drive the stream of consciousness onward to a new mode of rebirth, and exactly where consciousness becomes established is determined by the kammic character of the sankharas.

— “Anicca Vata Sankhara”, Bhikku Bodhi

Viparinama Dukkha

Sun, 09 Oct 2011 11:37:00 +0400

I’ve found some very interesting definition of viparinama dukkha. I’ll save it here for later reference. Irrelevant to the fact is his definition correct or not (I’d say its more likely sankhara dukkha), I’m pretty sure this feeling is very familiar to the most of us. -df

Thus, from the experience of social conditions there arises both physical and psychological suffering. But more fundamental still is that profound sense of unease, of anxiety or angst,which arises from the very transience (anicca) of life (viparinama-dukkha). This angst, however conscious of it we may or may not be, drives the restless search to establish a meaningful self-identity in the face of a disturbing awareness of our insubstantiality (anatta).Ultimately, life is commonly a struggle to give meaning to life — and to death. This is so much the essence of the ordinary human condition and we are so very much inside it, that for much of the time we are scarcely aware of it. This existential suffering is the distillation of all the various conditions to which we have referred above — it is the human condition itself…

…the anxiety, the profound sense of unease felt by the individual in his naked experience of life in the world when not masked by busyness, objectives, diversions and other confirmations and distractions.

— “Buddhism and Social Action: An Exploration”, Ken Jones

Dynamics of the Meditative Path

Wed, 05 Oct 2011 22:42:41 +0400

Preliminary practices: inner space
Dynamically: Paralysis of ego functions other than observing ego
Danger is self-fragmentation
Emptiness misunderstood as incompleteness
Egolessness misunderstood as loss of psychodynamic ego

Concentration: oceanic feeling
Dynamically: Merger of ego and ego-ideal
Danger is self-annihilation
Emptiness misunderstood as a real nothingness
Egolessness misunderstood as loss of ego boundaries, abolition of the self

Mindfulness: surrender
Dynamically: Loss of self-consciousness without loss of awareness
Danger is self-abnegation
Emptiness misunderstood as a quiet mind free of thoughts
Egolessness misunderstood as relinquishment of the ego or repudiation of the self

Insight: emptiness/relativity
Dynamically: Understanding the representational nature of experience
Danger is self-deception
Emptiness misunderstood as a real disappearance
Egolessness misunderstood as the absence of self-representation

— “Psychotherapy without the Self: A Buddhist Perspective”, Dr. Mark Epstein M.D.

"Terror and delight"

Sat, 24 Sep 2011 22:41:06 +0400

“…when the path of insight is analyzed carefully, stages with predominantly two contrasting affective tones can be discriminated, what the Visuddhimagga, the classic textbook of Buddhist psychology, calls experiences of “terror and delight”

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…experiences of terror, on the other hand, derive from the investigating aspects of the mindfulness practice and from the insights that precipitate out of such practice. They are characterized by clear perception of the impermanent, insubstantial and unsatisfying nature of the self and the field of experience. These experiences are profoundly disturbing; they evoke discomfort, fear and anxiety, require the meditator to relinquish fundamental beliefs and identifications, and tend to be fragmenting and anxiogenic.

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The experience of terror, however, and the fruits of the insight practices, have little to do with the ego ideal. There is no satisfaction of a yearning for perfection in these experiences, no evocation of grandeur, elation or omnipotence. Rather, these experiences directly challenge the grasp of the deeply buried and highly treasured ideal ego. They confront the “illusory ontology of the self” (Hanly, 1984, p. 255), expose the ego as groundless, impermanent and empty, and overcome the denials that empower the wishful image of the self. When faced with these experiences, the meditator has nothing to fall back on; he must surrender his most closely guarded identifications, relinquishing them as “not me” and “not mine.” As described in the Visuddhimagga, He sees the non-existence of a self of his own … he sees of his own self too that it is not the property of another’s self… . He sees the non-existence of another’s self, thus `There is no other’s self anywhere’ He sees of another that that other is not the property of his own self thus `My owning of that other’s self does not exist’ So this mere conglomeration of formations is seen … as voidness of self or property of a self…. (Nyanamoli, 1976, p. 763)

— “Psychotherapy without the Self: A Buddhist Perspective”, Dr. Mark Epstein M.D.

Importance of the conceptual understanding

Fri, 23 Sep 2011 22:30:06 +0400

“Confusion over what is meant by ego can arise here, with many mistaking egolessness for abandonment of the theoretical/ metapsychological/structural ego. Egolessness, in this case, is confused with the absence of repression, or with liberation from psychological defenses, a view which often encourages the release of buried sexual or aggressive longing. This can be thought of as a “primal scream” version of egolessness, perpetuated by insufficient conceptual preparation for meditation, and vulnerable to becoming a kind of self-righteous hedonism. The need for an appropriate conceptual framework at this stage is clear. ”

— “Psychotherapy without the Self: A Buddhist Perspective”, Dr. Mark Epstein M.D.

Importance of both mindfulness and concentration

Thu, 22 Sep 2011 22:38:05 +0400

“Refusing to progress either on the path of concentration, by focusing the mind on a single object, or on the path of mindfulness, by moving from attention to content to attention to process, the meditator can be caught up in a fascination with psychological material without moving toward any resolution of conflict. Rorschach studies of experienced meditators showed no diminution of internal conflict, but only a marked “non-defensiveness in experiencing such conflicts” (Brown & Engler, 1986, p. 189), a rather paralyzing combination in someone who refuses either to seek therapeutic help in working through the conflict or to let go of the content of the conflict as demanded by the meditative path. Alternatively, there are those who find that meditation both reveals to them their need for therapeutic work and facilitates that work by decreasing their defensiveness. ”

— “Psychotherapy without the Self: A Buddhist Perspective”, Dr. Mark Epstein M.D.

(Also clearly marks an importance of “letting go”, accepting “as is” is only the half of the deal -df)

Mindfulness // Bare attention

Wed, 21 Sep 2011 22:35:06 +0400

“Preliminary practices of meditation, just like beginning psychoanalysis, require the meditator to take his or her own experience as the object of awareness. In Buddhist terms, the attentional strategy is called “bare attention,” while in psycho-analytic terms it is called “evenly suspended attention” or free association. Both require what Freud called the suspension of judgment and the giving of “impartial attention to everything there is to observe” (1909, p. 23). In Buddhist terms, bare attention is defined as “the clear and single-minded awareness of what actually happens to us and in us at the successive moments of perception” (Nyanaponika, 1962). In psychodynamic terms, this self-contemplation is defined as a therapeutic split (Engler, 1986) in the ego (Sterba, 1934), in which ego takes itself as object. As Freud commented in his New Introductory Lectures, We wish to make the ego the object of our study, our own ego. But how can that be done? The ego is the subject, par excellence: how can it become the object? There is no doubt, however, that it can. The ego can take itself as object; it can treat itself like any other object, observe itself, criticize itself, do Heaven knows what besides with itself…. The ego can, then, be split; … The parts can later on join up again. (Sterba, 1934, p. 80)”

— “Psychotherapy without the Self: A Buddhist Perspective”, Dr. Mark Epstein M.D.

Dual orientation of narcissism

Tue, 20 Sep 2011 22:33:06 +0400

“Guntrip (1971) insists that “every personality” hovers “between two opposite fears, the fear of isolation in independence with loss of ego in a vacuum of experience, and the fear of bondage to, of imprisonment or absorption in the personality of whomever he rushes to for protection” (p. 291). These two poles, of grandiosity or omnipotence on the one hand, and emptiness or insufficiency on the other, represent what Lou Andreas-Salome (1962), one of Freud’s great confidants, termed the “dual orientation of narcissism,” that of the “desire for individuality” with its associated feelings of “a ghostlike facsimile of existence” (p. 7) versus the “contrary movement toward conjugation and fusion” that involves “identification with the totality” (pp. 4-5).”

— “Psychotherapy without the Self: A Buddhist Perspective”, Dr. Mark Epstein M.D.

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Tue, 20 Sep 2011 13:10:17 +0400

False view on (and fear of) emptiness

Mon, 19 Sep 2011 22:33:05 +0400

“This is also the fundamental danger for the rest of us in progressing on the path of meditation. We are all prone to ignore the falsely conceived self by dwelling in the tranquil stabilization that meditation practice offers. These states, which can become ineffably sublime, offer experiences of oneness far removed from our usual personalities that can be mistaken for emptiness by an untrained practitioner. Yet the ultimate purpose of Buddhist meditation is not to withdraw from the falsely conceived self but to recognize the misconception, thereby weakening its influence. “Without disbelieving the object of this (misconception),” said Dharmakirti, “it is impossible to abandon (misconceiving it)” (Hopkins, 1987, p. 137). There is a deep, tenacious resistance to this disbelief, a kind of clutching that occurs, a fear of an emptiness that is conceived to be as real as the inherently existent I. In the words of Huang Po, “Men are afraid to forget their minds, fearing to fall through the Void with nothing to stay their fall. They do not know that the Void is not really void, but the realm of the real Dharma” (Blofeld, 1958, p. 41). “

— “Psychotherapy without the Self: A Buddhist Perspective”, Dr. Mark Epstein M.D.

Emptiness, depressive personality

Sun, 18 Sep 2011 22:50:05 +0400

“In the depressive personality, emptiness functions as a kind of one step beyond loneliness. Not only is the loved object missed and longed for, but there is an internal void and a feeling of an incapacity for love. There may be a deeply felt sense of unworthiness that attributes the loss of the other to the person’s own badness (Kernberg, 1975); thus depressed persons come to feel that they do not deserve to be loved or appreciated. The therapeutic value of meditation for these people lies in the establishment of contact with a valued internal object through the concentration practices that release feelings of love, joy, contentment, and oneness. This is not a substitute for establishing intimate relationships, but it does reveal to depressed personalities that they are capable of feeling what they thought themselves incapable of. “

— “Psychotherapy without the Self: A Buddhist Perspective”, Dr. Mark Epstein M.D.

Emptiness, schizoid personality type

Sat, 17 Sep 2011 22:36:06 +0400

“The schizoid personality tends to feel emptiness as an “innate quality” (Kernberg, 1975) of their being that makes them different from other people, who they can see have feelings of “love, hatred, tenderness, longing or mourning” (p. 215) that they find unavailable within themselves. The schizoid stance has been seen as a defense against feeling longing for “emotional supplies from a good object” (Stewart, 1985) or as the result of “destructive impulses turned from the object towards his own ego” (Klein, 1946, p. 19). In either case, these people feel disintegrated, rather than anxious, unable to experience emotion, unable to contact others, and most in touch with a “soothing” (Kernberg, 1975), “amorphous experience of indefiniteness and weakness” (Guntrip, 1971, p. 97). Successful meditation for them involves a gradual process whereby contact is first made with the ego ideal through the concentration practices, providing a sense of ontological security to counter their pervasive insecurity and allowing the soothing emptiness to be gradually relinquished. At this point the mindfulness practices can begin to uncover the emotional traces that have been unattended to. The obvious mis-use of meditation here is as a validation and reinforcement of the schizoid view of “no feelings” as an absolute truth. The Zen chant of “No eyes, no ears, no mouth, etc.” can readily serve as a schizoid defense when incorrectly apprehended.”

— “Psychotherapy without the Self: A Buddhist Perspective”, Dr. Mark Epstein M.D.

Emptiness, narcissist personality type

Fri, 16 Sep 2011 22:32:05 +0400

“Emptiness in the narcissist is a result of the void that is created in the internal world of object relations through the constant devaluation of others (Kernberg, 1982). This is a pervasive feeling that can be temporarily interrupted only by admiration from others (Kernberg, 1975), which tends to be all that is sought in intimate relationships.

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Narcissists are much more likely to subvert the notion of “non-self” or “egolessness,” incorporating that image back into their ideal egos, becoming arrogant about their special understanding and using Buddhist veneration of emptiness as justification for their paucity of meaningful relationships.”

— “Psychotherapy without the Self: A Buddhist Perspective”, Dr. Mark Epstein M.D.

The Buddhist Doctrine of Non-Self, and the Problem of the Over-Self

Fri, 16 Sep 2011 21:33:05 +0400

The Buddhist Doctrine of Non-Self, and the Problem of the Over-Self:

Highly recommended article for proper understanding of “non-self”. One of “the Middle Way” articles.

Emptiness, borderline personality

Thu, 15 Sep 2011 22:30:00 +0400

“…borderline personality, for instance, what is most lacking is the synthetic or integrative capacity of the ego to consolidate and maintain multiple, conflicting self/object representations. The relationship of the self with internalized object relationships is distorted by the defense of splitting, in which all good and all bad representations of the same person cannot be integrated. Similarly, splitting can persist between the grandiose, idealized self/object and the “deflated, debased” self/object (Lichtenberg,1975), and the ideal ego may remain fused with primitive all-good object representations, rather than separating off into the superego. The mindfulness practices actually strengthen the synthetic capacities of the ego (Epstein, 1988) by training the observing ego to attend to whatever arises without clinging or condemnation, thus allowing conflicting images to present themselves just as they are. So mindfulness practices can actually be very helpful in decreasing the pathologized emptiness of the borderline personality. However, if the insight practices into the emptiness of the ideal ego are attempted prematurely, there are real risks of the loss of the good self-images with which it may be fused, with the preservation and exacerbation of the all-bad, destructive images provoking the borderline’s characteristic defensive flight into depersonalization or identity loss.”

— “Psychotherapy without the Self: A Buddhist Perspective”, Dr. Mark Epstein M.D.

"It is said that someone who tries to meditate without a conceptual understanding of what he or she..."

Thu, 15 Sep 2011 21:51:05 +0400

“It is said that someone who tries to meditate without a conceptual understanding of what he or she is doing is like a blind person trying to find the way in open country: such a person can only wander about, with no idea how to choose one direction over another”

- Kalu Rinpoche, “The Dharma”, Albany: S.U.N.Y. Press, 1986. (p. 113)

"The practice of bodhisattvas has emptiness as its realization: when beginning students see..."

Wed, 14 Sep 2011 23:38:00 +0400

“The practice of bodhisattvas has emptiness as its realization: when beginning students see emptiness, this is seeing emptiness, it is not real emptiness. Those who cultivate the Way and attain real emptiness do not see emptiness or nonemptiness; they have no views.”

- Dayi Daoxin, fourth Zen Patriarch

"Originally, the various `emptinesses’ were needed to break through existence. But once/since..."

Tue, 30 Aug 2011 08:58:00 +0400

“Originally, the various `emptinesses’ were needed to break through existence. But once/since there are no existents, what `emptiness’ is needed?”

- Dogen, thirteenth-century Japanese Zen master

Endings - Deus Ex: Human Revolution OST by Michael McCann

Wed, 24 Aug 2011 20:16:00 +0400

Endings - Deus Ex: Human Revolution OST by Michael McCann