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Dec 12

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‘Discipline’ is a difficult word for most of us. It conjures up images of somebody standing over you with a stick, telling you that you’re wrong. But self-discipline is different. It’s the skill of seeing through the hollow shouting of your own impulses and piercing their secret. They have no power over you. It’s all a show, a deception.

Your urges scream and bluster at you; they cajole; they coax; they threaten; but they really carry no stick at all. You give in out of habit. You give in because you never really bother to look beyond the threat. It is all empty back there. There is only one way to learn this lesson, though. The words on this page won’t do it.

But look within and watch the stuff coming up – restlessness, anxiety, impatience, pain – just watch it come up and don’t get involved. Much to your surprise, it will simply go away. It rises, it passes away. As simple as that.

There is another word for ‘self-discipline’. It is ‘Patience’.

” Ven. Henepola Gunaratana

Dec 11

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Activities are endless, like ripples on a stream.
They end only when you drop them.
Human moods are like the changing highlights and shadows on a sunlit mountain range.

All activities are like the games children play,
like castles being made of sand.
View them with delight and equanimity,
like grandparents overseeing their grandchildren
or a shepherd resting on a grassy knoll watching over his grazing flock.

” Nyoshul Khenpo Rinpoche

Dec 10

“To tell others that
It is a rumor
Will not do.
When your own heart asks,
How will you respond?” Hagakure, Yamamoto Tsunetomo

Dec 3

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Learn the art of patience. Apply discipline to your thoughts when they become anxious over the outcome of a goal.

Impatience breeds anxiety, fear, discouragement and failure.

Patience creates confidence, decisiveness, and a rational outlook, which eventually leads to success.

” This quote is on my homepage for almost 3 years by now. There’s a lot of wisdom here. Patience and discipline. There’s no patience without discipline - its laziness. Be disciplined. Be patient.

I’ve made two wrong turns last time. First - reinventing the wheel. Clumsy “avoiding awareness” is simply “ignorance” - root of all evil, as specified in Buddhism. There’s some language barrier and my understanding of “ignorance” was a little bit different before, but still. And the second wrong turn is overlooking practical while searching for spiritual. (So I’m sorry, Toshi, my experiment will be extended for another week)

I lack discipline of thought and patience badly. So much to work on.

Nov 30

Despite initial relieving and positive GTD effect, people seems to avoid it, unless its a habit or forcing/motivating themselves somehow. Why is that? In 9 of 10 cases I’ve heard the answer “I’m scared”. People are writing down things not to deal with them, but actually to write and forget them.

Turning point here is being aware, being consciousness about one’s actions. People tends to push unpleasant things (or things they consider unpleasant) to push to the back of the stage. GTD here is little help - it will be abandoned sooner or later. Extermination of habit of “avoiding awareness” needs much deeper work. Less techy, more psychological, even spiritual.

Nov 25

Despite the fact there’s no Universal Truth cant be spoken with words, there is enlightening words for everyone. They’re not like a whole picture, but more like lacking piece of the puzzle. Clicking into missing slot of our mind, they’re making our life shine with sudden understanding and luminous clarity. Selfishly speaking of me, the most enlightening words, a great source of ease and joy are: “Think That All Phenomena are Like Dreams”.

Nov 24

Its important to remember one thing: when working “in the flow” - there’s no motivations, no targets, no aims. There’s nothing holding you or pulling in any direction. With the flow, its not about “me doing something”, its about “me letting something happen”. There’s even no any sign of “me”, its the process, and “me” is only a part of it. It is crucial to be moved by the flow, not by motivation.

Jul 29

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Ed Harrison - Imbrium, Neotokyo OST

Jul 24

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Michiru Oshima - You Were There (feat. S. Geraghty), ICO OST